Thirty Day Happenings

This year I told myself I would make change. Sometimes my tendency is to wait things out in hopes that I will be exactly where I want before making true change...you know, change before the change. I know. It doesn't make sense, and my mind is a crazy roller coaster of fun.

Earlier in the year my goal was to take a well-known program consisting of eating whole foods for thirty days and begin my journey to healthy. This wonderful idea was pushed to February due to my "busy" life at the time and not reading the program's book fully. As you can guess I was trying to know the program perfectly (there's that word again) before stepping out into unknown waters. But my plans to read it fully had yet to happen at the end of April. March. It was perfect. I would go into my thirty-third year of life on the whole program of happy eating.

"But what about my birthday. There is cake on my birthday and I must have cake."

I told myself it wasn't fair to be doing something on my special day that would deprive me of all happiness - and it was my birthday, after all.

Shortly after this I decided it would be the week following my birthday. As it got closer I realize it would be December before I truly committed. And really, Christmas is in December so that wouldn't have worked out well. Hello, January. How is 2017 so far?

I did celebrate my birthday - with cake. The following week I was determined that no matter how much I knew and no matter how far I had been in preparing a grocery list, I would not waste any more time. On April 4th I started my thirty-day program.

I'm now on day twenty-two.

Yes, I am happy. Yes, I am proud of myself. Yes, I have felt better everyday, but for heaven's sake all I want is sugar! I laugh about it but the reality is that I am fine. I am great, actually. I have not felt this good in many months.

Over the past few weeks I have received energy in return for skipping desserts, clear minded in return for devouring pasta, and a confidence that no amount of ice cream or Chipotle could give me. In exchange for eating what my body needs and sacrificing some minor delights in life (and yes, reality says they are minor) I am gaining a new confidence and determination to continue this journey to a more healthier self.

For the first time, in a long time, I see hope rising and motivation pushing and encouraging me. That speaks volumes to me, as you may know if you've had a chance to ready any of my past blogs.

Thank Jesus that I can see a future. While this program really helps me understand my body more and works on those areas that will give me a longer physical life, I have seen more growth in my spiritual walk. I've notice how I give Him more credit, more time, and more effort.

Gone are the days of negative talk and self-destruction. Well, almost...one step, one day at a time. I'm closer to God's reality than my own. And I'm happy.